I think that the most likely reason of all may have been that his heart was two sizes too small

I'll admit it. Under normal everyday circumstances, my natural tendency is to be a Pollyanna. I would like to believe that people, no matter how idiotic they are on the surface, are good at heart. I am starting to realize that with Paperweight that just isn't the case. He can look good on the surface. He can say and do the right things (when he wants too)...but when it comes to his natural instinct, if you received a gut reaction from him, you are more likely to get to the truth of him, which is this: Paperweight is a very selfish person. Okay, this we know. But I think the extent of it is just hitting home. You know, he's just not a very nice person. After bringing the girl home from preschool, I've been letting him stay for dinner three nights a week. Last night was one of those nights. And we had this conversation afterwards where I received one of those "gut reactions" from him and it just stopped me dead. Now, don't misunderstand me; this was not a heat-of-the-moment-say-something-in-anger interaction. Those, in my opinion, while still hurtful are understandable. No, this was just a regular ole everyday conversation.... Anyway, I wasn't all raving pissed or anything. I can't even say I was angry. I think it was just, like I said, hitting home. He could tell he gave me pause for thought and tried to "take it back" saying he didn't want to cause a problem. But see? He just doesn't get it. He can't take it back. He said what he said because he's the kind of person who would say something like that. And that, you just can't take back.