You never know just how you look through other people's eyes

Over the weekend, I watched Things to Do in Denver When You're Dead, which if you haven't seen, I highly recommend it. I always crack up when I watch this movie though because it reminds me of when it first came out on video. My friends passed it around snicker among themselves and then passed it on to me to watch. Apparently, according to my friends, the character Dagney, played by the adorable Gabrielle Anwar, is me. Don't get me wrong, as much as I loathe to admit it, I don't look anything like the gorgeous Ms. Anwar. My friends were speaking of her character's personality, the way she acts, even, they say, her mannerisms. I've seen this movie and I'm totally okay with my friends feeling this way. Dagney has an elegant sureness to herself; an ability to remain calm and steady even though some events in her life are anything but calm and steady. Dagney, in short, is one pretty cool chick. But it is not AT ALL how I picture myself...how I feel inside myself. I've always related more to Lucy, played by Sandra Bullock, in While You Were Sleeping. That cute in an akward sort of way, very nice and funny, but very unsure and lonely..... And like most of the characters that Sandra Bullock plays, I too tend to snort a little when I laugh. It's a genetic trait; all the women in my family do it. So which is the real me? Which is the real you? The one we feel or the one we portray? Is what I portray to my friends a false mask and what I feel is real? Or are my friends just seeing things that I am not? Do I tend to only see the 'negative' in myself?